Thank is what is going on with me for the last couple of days. Ever since I lost my job last week(a whole long long story that I might post some other time, but lets just say..losing ones job right before holidays is not fun.)
I am going to be 25 in a little more then four months. A quoter of a century has passed since i was born. I keep thinking about what have I done with my life, where is my life going? I have yet to get more then first semester freshman credit in college, and I know that college is not for everyone, but I feel like I have failed in this respect. I hold education in such a high regard, yet I can't learn in a traditional setting. I know a little about a whole bunch of things, but can never seem to apply that to anything important. By this point in my life I wanted to either A)be on my way towards teaching, B) running for some political office, or C)acting professionally.
As you can tell I have not accomplished any of this. I kind of feel like I am permently treading water. The only thing I am sure about, is my relationship with Manda. I know that we will, eventually, get married, once she figures out where she will be for a sustained period of time(and we can save money:-P I love you sweetie)
this part of the U2 sone, "Stuck in the moment" keeps going through my head:
You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
I dont know, I guess I feel kinda useless now that I lost a job that i liked. I felt that being in retail management actually gave my life direction and meaning. Now I have lost it.
I had a lot more going through my head, but I am finding it hard to put it down on "paper". I guess this will have to be a two part entry.
TO BE CONTINUED...