Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow

You ever get into one of those contemplative moods, that makes it impossible to do anything else but think?

Thank is what is going on with me for the last couple of days. Ever since I lost my job last week(a whole long long story that I might post some other time, but lets just say..losing ones job right before holidays is not fun.)

I am going to be 25 in a little more then four months. A quoter of a century has passed since i was born. I keep thinking about what have I done with my life, where is my life going? I have yet to get more then first semester freshman credit in college, and I know that college is not for everyone, but I feel like I have failed in this respect. I hold education in such a high regard, yet I can't learn in a traditional setting. I know a little about a whole bunch of things, but can never seem to apply that to anything important. By this point in my life I wanted to either A)be on my way towards teaching, B) running for some political office, or C)acting professionally.

As you can tell I have not accomplished any of this. I kind of feel like I am permently treading water. The only thing I am sure about, is my relationship with Manda. I know that we will, eventually, get married, once she figures out where she will be for a sustained period of time(and we can save money:-P I love you sweetie)

this part of the U2 sone, "Stuck in the moment" keeps going through my head:
You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I dont know, I guess I feel kinda useless now that I lost a job that i liked. I felt that being in retail management actually gave my life direction and meaning. Now I have lost it.

I had a lot more going through my head, but I am finding it hard to put it down on "paper". I guess this will have to be a two part entry.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Now for the preamble...

I was watching MSNBC with Manda tonight, they were talking about Dr. Tiller's murder. For those of you who have had your head in the clouds for the last couple of days, Dr.Tiller was a late term abortion doctor that was slain while being an usher at his church in Kentucky.

MSNBC was talking about how there are many "catholic" organizations that are praising his death, and calling it righteous for him to be gone.

They also said something which really cofused me..They kept saying that he was right now facing Jesus for his sins? As I understand religion(s) there is only one entity that can pass judgement on a human. Call him what you will, but to most people that entity would be called GOD.

What I would like people to help me find out is two fold:
A) when did Jesus in christianity replace God as another deity that can be worshiped (and in the process not be breaking one of the most sacred, ten commandments, "thou shalt have no other GOD before me, and that you shall not make an idol in his image.")
B) If Jesus is a replacement for GOD, and people do in fact worship him and not GOD himself, does this not make them idolaters and not worthy of GODS love? Are they themselves doomed to hell for this breaking of such holy scripture?

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I am going to put an ad in the Omaha NB newspaper, advertising some babysitting care...then give the runt up at the local safe-haven shelter, regardless of there age!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080822/ap_on_re_us/children_safe_havens;_ylt=AqN5E8s0EiWUdK_cf1jJRUys0NUE

So a person at Wegmans on Sheridan Dr in Amherst, was found friday to have Hepatitis A...she worked in the produce department...

some of you may realise that Produce is a really good place for Hep A to live...

This is causing a health scare, involving an estimated 80,000 people.

This is a health scare that erie county has never seen....it was the first time that they had to enact the public health crisis plan..

I would say that it is not going well...see over the past couple of year (2003-pres) Erie county has decided to cut back on little things, like corrections officers, police officers, DMV, and the offices of public health...THEY ONLY HAVE 25 NURSES ON STAFF!!!!

I went with my mother who needed the shot at 645...we did not leave ECC NORTH till 9! some people had been there since 4 this afternoon, and where just getting ready to leave..

So i say to the county Exec...that refuses to call himself that for those that dont know... RUN SOME MORE FUCKING DRILLS, AND ALSO HIRE SOME LIFESAVING NURSES!

I am addicted to this song non. I dont know what has happened to Matchbox's sound, but whatever they have done. I really really like it.




and as the song says, lets see how far we've come...

if you ask me 2007 has been one of the busiest years in recent memory, so I want to ask the people on my flist, whats been the biggest this this year. We are almost done, less then two months. I'll go first.

in world politics, we saw Israel finally willing to talk about giving up part of Jerusalem over to the Palestinian gov't.

These are just some odd or cool links that I have found recently..you might have seen them already, but I just found them :-P

ever wonder what the gov't thinks you should do incase of an emergancy???
http://www.quantumlounge.com/data/terror/what_to_do.htm

Why is it that one person can't own an canadanian??
http://www.humanistsofutah.org/2002/WhyCantIOwnACanadian_10-02.html

and here are just some interesting things
http://www.thebiglad.com/Crazy-Facts

if only for a second

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but first this really really strange news...
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20061219/od_uk_nm/oukoe_uk_husband

and now on to the criminals..
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061219/ap_on_fe_st/bad_crack

*a buffalo criminal ahead*
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061218/ap_on_fe_st/birds_in_pocket

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061218/ap_on_fe_st/christmas_contraband

and I think this will teach those criminals that think that petty crimes are just those:P
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061218/ap_on_fe_st/christmas_in_jail

in other news, not that anyone really cares...but I will be in NYC for the next day or so...so me might not be reachable..not like I normally am:-P

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i have come to the realisation that i can be a real asshole almost 90 percent of the time and the other 10 percent is of trying to apologize 4 being sed ass

me and amanda are back

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as some of you will see I am going through and weeding people and things I want out of my LJ... if you do not comment, or you do not say anything constructive when you do comment...then you are going to get deleted...I am tired of my LJ causing drama, or bad things to happen to me...This is a place where I write to get my feelings. A place to say things I dare not say to people in person. and a place to just write. so if you can't stand that..then leave, and I will delete you as soon as I see.

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FROM THIS DAY FORWARD IF I EVER ACT LIKE AN ASSHOLE TO AMANDA MAY I LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE IN THE GUTTER. SINCE THAT IS WHERE I BELONG!

I AM VOWING FROM THIS DAY FORWARD THAT THE ASSHOLE THAT I WAS BEING, IS GONE! AND THE NEXT FIGHT THAT WE EVER HAVE, BECAUSE OF MY BEING ONE. BE THE LAST THING/FIGHT WE EVER HAVE, SINCE I WILL LEAVE HER RIGHT Hhen AND THERE

MULTAN, Pakistan (Reuters) - Fateh Mohammad, a prisoninmate in Pakistan, says he woke up last weekend with a glass lightbulb in his anus.Wednesday night, doctors brought Mohammad's misery to an end after a one-and-a-half hour operation to remove the object.

"Thanks Allah, now I feel comfort. Today, I had my breakfast. I was just drinking water, nothing else," Mohammad,a grey-beared man in his mid-40s, told Reuters from a hospital bed in the southern central city of Multan.

"We had to take it out intact," said Dr. Farrukh Aftab at Nishtar Hospital. "Had it been broken inside, it would be a very very complicated situation."

Mohammad, who is serving a four-year sentence for making liquor, prohibited for Muslims, said he was shocked when he was first told the cause of his discomfort. He swears he didn'tknow the bulb was there.

"When I woke up I felt a pain in my lower abdomen, but later in hospital, they told me this," Mohammad said.

"I don't know who did this to me. Police or other prisoners."

The doctor treating Mohammad said he'd never encountered anything like it before, and doubted the felon's story that someone had drugged him and inserted the bulb while he was comatose.

so everyone...wanna know where you can get all the dirt on mine and Amanda's weeding?

head on over to marriedpeople and add it:)  that is our wedding journal..

we will be posting all our registry, et al. There

so come on you know you want to add it;)

you dirty voyuers you:-P

j/k

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060624/ap_en_tv/spelling_obit;_ylt=AnuDymUrqXCqyW_J0JjPzHOs0NUE;_ylu=X3oDMTA2Z2szazkxBHNlYwN0bQ--

RIP Aaron Spelling, TV will miss you

VICTORY IS MINE!!

Amanda has started to say Pop, instead of soda:-P

Buffalo-1, New York-0!!!

New Yorkers does that make her lose her New York card?

THAT IS ALL

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This is so cute and so funny...make sure you have your sound on!

http://stupidvideos.com/video/animals/CatMassagesDog/

http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/badgersong

http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/familyguybk

any jew will know what this is talking about:-P
http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/matzah

to some this will be in distaste:-P but to others they will be hillarious
http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/legos911

any actaul post will be coming soon.

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